Posted on Tuesday, February 22 2011 by
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How does one describe the feeling of giving birth and then having their life completely change again? It is day 22 of his life and already I can sense a routine beginning to merge, naturally having a 25 month old toddler adds to the mix and you are constantly juggling one day at a time and living so much in the present. Each day is unique and I feel like I am going through the motions. Deep sense of love fills my heart and so grateful for having such a wonderful supportive partner through this wonderful journey. Part of me is in auto-pilot mode of doing what needs to be done and the other part is taking it all in, the newness of it all and the fact that they grow up so quickly, so I am breathing him in. It is a wonderful feeling being responsible for such beautiful creations and knowing what you do and how you feel impacts their mental state. This sets the tone for the day and I am so fully aware of that.
Even today going out in a double pram, having one crying newborn you get your fair share of stares from the public. Especially when you need to queue for things, before I would be a wreck just being in line and today, I chose to let it pass me by and let go of what others might be thinking. After all babies do cry that is a fact, and mine chose to do it there and then. So be it. I am ok with that.
I have grown up and have an inner calmness about me. It started with his birth and that feeling of being grounded is still there. Sure I have been a bit emotional too, that is natural and women need to acknowledge that having a cry is good for the soul. We are human after all and can feel overwhelmed at times, no matter how organised we can be.
So falling through the days is a wonderful and ever present feeling, I just need to remember to take care of me too in those 24 hours.