Posted on Saturday, August 01 2009 by
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During the weekend my husbands’ laptop decided to take a break, and as it usually happens it was not a good time to have a software meltdown. So he spent the majority of the time reinstalling software and ensuring all worked for the next working day. This made me think about our own internal diagnostics and what do we do to self regulate.
We have people around us to keep us in check most of the time, we have our own internal self guidance system of our emotions and how the day runs for us. We have filtering systems and also expectations of our routine and these are habits we have formed over time..
So what happens when the program doesn’t work? Or we simply freeze in the moment because we have to make a decision and weigh up the pros and cons.
This is when our self diagnostics needs a re-boot of some kind. We are forced to look at the situation and really think about our self guidance and where it fits into our model of the world.
I will spare you the details, this is exactly what happened to me whilst my husband’ laptop was in re-boot mode so was my own mind. Stuck in the dilemma that wasn’t an issue 24 hours before. Yet suddenly this was all I could think about, and unlike me it just was spiraling in my head over and over again like a broken record. I became emotional and I just couldn’t shake it. It was because it was important and emotionally had more meaning than I gave it.
So that evening, I took action to address it, as otherwise I would not rest and the issue would own me. I am of the mind that even if you have things happen that are unpleasant burying it will not help in the long term. Address it when it is fresh and seek clarification and understanding only then will you be able to move on.
I made the first step and since then I have let go of the whole emotional attachment. I know I have done the right thing for my family and my own peace of mind and at the end of the day that is all I can control.
Working on your own self development will bring up issues from your past and also place you in conflict situations. I choose to see these as a test to ensure I am heading in the right direction as I check in with my internal guidance system and my life purpose.