Emotional Time

I heard the other day in my yoga class about how we hold onto emotions and they are stored in our bodies, in particular our hips. Made me think about my tight hips and what is going on for me. A whole range of emotions poured out as I had been layering them in, one at a time, thus my hips got tighter and less mobile.

On the outside I look healthy and I can still dance salsa, however on the inside I knew my hips were crying to just ‘let go’ of all the residual punishment I had subjected them too, my emotional rollercoaster. Going through the IVF program is like climbing a mountain, or running a marathon, never ending and full of surprises and disappointments. Your life evolves around the calendar, dates, blood tests and ultra sounds. You place everything else on hold and you prioritize your life.

I have been on the journey for two years and yes it is emotional. Combine this with my Latin blood and it is almost a deadly combination! I am glad that now I laugh about it, distant from my pain.

I have gained more patience and I am now in peace, it took a long time to say this and be true to myself. It has also made me more determined and motivated to have a family. A goal that keeps me going, even through the darkest of times.

I am focused on other things now, not to say that this has lost priority, it hasn’t I just need to be more productive with my time and my energy with building my businesses.

I am still emotional, that will never cease, and this makes me more real and vulnerable, however I am finding my hips opening up and becoming more flexible.

A wonderful bonus.